I’ve been reading the blog entries that Palestinian-American writer and activist Nehad Khader has been posting about her first-time visit back to her grandparents’ homeplaces (here, etc.)
Amazing, heartfelt writing. (HT: Adam Horowitz at Mondoweiss.)
Nehad writes:
- I have never felt a more bizarre sensation for intense saddness and simultaneous ecstacy. I was a returnee, and having eaten from the fruits of the land felt like I was taking back what was mine. I also completely put down my guard and found myself laughing while tears rolled down my eyes. I always said I would return to Umm el Zeinat and rebuild, but now I know I will. I’ve had lots of thoughts that I need to comb through and understand. I’ve been preparing for this moment my entire life, and now that its happened I cannot wait for it to happen again. My village is there and it still exists, with a few folks left behind to take care of it until we can all reunite.
In the grand Zionist plan my brother and I were supposed to have forgotten this land. We should not have known that we are from Umm el Zeinat, we should not have stepped foot on it ever again. But in some small way we– and millions like us– have punched a very large hole in the Zionist plan. I had a wonderful conversation today about this with Amin Mohammad Ali, shop owner and brother of Palestinian poet Taha Mohammad Ali in Nazareth. I will write more about this conversation, but I realized that although I am in the “green line” and what is known as Israel proper, the Palestinians here are me and I am the Palestinians here.
Also, see her post about the Palestinian embroidery exhibition she put on in Philadephia before she left on her trip.
New Jewish immigrants to Israel from around the world are all given– in addition, of course, to instant citizenship, the right to reside in the country endlessly, and generous baskets of social benefits– a set of experiences, carefully stage-managed by the state’s Ministry of Absorption, that is supposed to make them feel as though they are coming “home.”
There is not one iota of stage-management in Nehad’s experiences, or of artifice in her reaction to them.
It is intriguing to me how nowadays, Palestinians with western passports are among the most privileged of Palestinians, being abe to travel much more freely among the many places of Palestinian residence– inside Israel, in Syria, Jordan, Lebanon, the OPTs, Gulf countries, etc– than most of the Palestinians who still live in the Middle East.
Indeed, once you get to Gaza or the West Bank, the ability of Palestinians residing in those occupied areas to travel freely to visit close relatives in other places of Palestinian dispersal become almost zero.
Nehad was able to go to Syria, where she had spent her early years in the huge Yarmouk refugee camp. She went to Jordan (and of course found relatives there, too)… and now she’s in Israel.
The experience of being a Palestinian refugee today really is very different from what it was in, say, the 1950s. It’s true that Nehad and other Palestinians with western passports are among the luckiest, regarding the ability to travel. But nowadays, even many Palestinians living in Gaza or Lebanon, in the very worst of all the circumstances faced by Palestinians, can keep in some touch with relatives in other places through the internet, Skype, etc.
True, it is still nowhere near the degree of connectedness that people in rich and middle-income countries are coming to take for granted. But it’s a lot more connectedness than Palestinians had with each other in earlier decades… And of course, this has consequences.
One has been to keep a keep rich and textured sense of Palestinian-ness alive in all these places of dispersion. Another has been to make it just about impossible, in this century, to think of “splitting” the Palestinians currently resident in the OPTs from those of their brethren– including yes, in every family there, close family members– who have been forced to stay in the diaspora.
Thus, the rights, claims, and needs of the diaspora Palestinians cannot simply be ignored in the peacemaking, which is what the Israelis have always wanted– and what US diplomacy over the past 16 years essentially aimed at, too.
The Zionists have just about finished with their massive project of “gathering in” their people. The Palestinians’ roughly parallel project has not yet begun to be implemented.